sitting at home bored.. with nothing to do and no one to talk to at the moment, nothing going on and no one's here.

just thinking, about the other day. that kind of stuff will almost make you crazy if you think about it too much, it's like, you're in that situation and you realized you could have acutally died. gone. i mean, thousands of people die by accidents like those in the world a year from the elements. no matter who you are, you're no match for the unforgiving power of nature, it doesn't care, it will pull you in and take you right with it. like, you read in the paper of someone falling from a cliff, or getting lost in mounains, and you think.. how did it happen? it's not on purpose, you don't wake up and know you're going to be put in a life peril situation that day. it's totally random, and when it does happen, your body freaks out, your brain lags. so many thoughts just rush through your mind you think back at it all and it really makes me think.. what if my brother wasn't with me.. what if the current sucked me down? he would have gone in right after me.. and just like that, we're both gone.

my mind is still not over it all, not to mention my body.. i swallowed so much frickin lake water i think i'm growing my own colony of sea monkeys @_@

Current Mood: contemplative

 i'm a little shaken up today.. i had my second near death experience today at the lake, and both were in this same past week.

first started as my brother's girlfriend, krista, and i were hunting for jobs on power road. all was normal we were driving.. and the sun was extremely bright that afternoon.. so we're U turning left on the light--i'm sitting in the passenger side, my head was burried reading my application, when all the sudden i hear a crash! then came the sound of metal scraping against asphalt.. the sun was bright shining in the windshield and krista didn't see the car pull right out in front of her! well, the car she hit was turning right, and, it hit our car on the front right side.. it totaled the front of krista's car! if we would have been going even the slightest bit faster than we were U turning, instead of ramming the front right side it could have smashed in on my door! i could have been leaving that intersection on a stretcher.. or worse, a body bag.. 


and today... we went out on lake swirl just to cruise in the boat, wake board, swim, and relax. just like normal, like every other time i've ever gone on the boat. but instead of wearing swimming trunks i wore black pants, because i couldn't find any shorts.. i didnt think i would go in the water, but i did when we were near the cove place. me, austin, my cousin dylan, and friend tyler were all messing around in the water, lots of other people were there too, and there was a strong current right off the shore. the current was from the water draining from the dam, and we all went in it, but i was wearing pants and could barely swim, everyone got out of the current before they got too far but austin waited for me.. um my pants wouldn't let me swim good enough and i panicked and started to flail, draining all my energy i could barely keep my head above the water, austin was helping me stay above the surface and telling me to swim, but soon we were getting farther out and i couldn't stay up anymore, i was going underwater, and all of my energy was depleted, i told austin i couldn't swim anymore.. dylan noticed and told my uncle mark but he didnt hear and austin was calling for help, but we were kinda far, so he didnt hear us it felt like i was struggling for 5 minutes..  then i went underwater.. i really thought i was going to drown.. but the next thing i knew i felt someone's arms were lifting me.. they pulled me to the surface and rested me on a life vest. as he was lugging me back to shore i was rambling "thanks for saving me." when i was on the gravel my limbs felt petrified and on fire, i really couldn't move them. my head was pounding i had a splitting headache, i was in total disorient. all i could see was a dark highlighted fuzz.. the hero that saved me turned out to be some retired firemen on shore, not saying my brother's not a hero, if it wern't for him i wouldn't have been able to stay above the water and my calls for help would have been too quiet.. no one really noticed me until he said something.. i swallowed so much lake water through the struggle, i got sick,  i was pale yellow going in shock, and couldn't move for a good ten minutes, i was put in the boat, laying over the boats edge. i threw up. all the lake water. 

Current Mood: drained

my life completely gets turned upside downnn


no nothing, except waking up extra early to take the bus to school and come home to nothing!

last friday i went to my first anime expo! ^_^ but i doubt it will be my last. i was with aki, yuki, mike, and blake. but some of our other friends met us there, too. the day before we went.. yuki suggested that i cosplay light, from death note, since she was gonna be L. it was funny cause we put this costume together literally the day before AX, and we found the perfect pants and shirt at a fabrics store, both of them were only 7 dollars together!  (~￣▽￣)~ ♪

the day before was funny, mike and blake were working on mike's sword for his ichigo costume, (from bleach) when we got to blake's granma's house. we stayed there for a little bit, then yuki and aki had horseback lessons, so they went to those. blake had a class at COC from 2:15 to 4:15, to between then me and mike wandered around the campus, we found the machine that'll give you free drinks, if you push the top and let it slam down! :3 so we got about 12 drinks, and stored them in mike's backpack! XD 

we left and later that night aki and yuki came back to blake's grandma's. we ended up staying up all night, switching between playing super smash bros, the tv, talking and joking, cooking food, (and making a HUGE mess) and eating it! with blake making the sword in the garage, the saws and sanders were too loud for him to know that the noodle sauce splattered all over the stove, things were being thrown, crumbs were everywhere, and i spilled the salt shaker ALL OVER THE FLOOR! O__o;;;; everyone was going crazy it was chaotic!! ＼(o⌒▽⌒o)ノ we cleaned before he even knew what hit that kitchen, though. (o ＞▽＜o)ノ before that and after, yuki was putting the patterns together, and aki sowing mike's costume, the sowing machine over heated at 6am, and they couldn't finish it! x__x; that whole night was fun, but mike's costume wasn't finished for the first day of anime expo.  -￢_￢-;;;;

we all went home for an hour and showered and stuff, then gathered and drove to long beach in blakes car! it was a long drive, and we finally arrived only to wait in line for six and a half hours!! =TT^TT= hahaha the longest line i've ever been in, too. we got in just in time for the J rock show, SKIN. ^_^; a whole bunch of artists were playing. soon after, our group scattered, and it was just me, yuki, and mike. we were totally sleep deprived, =_= and we were passing out in a nice spot around trees on a sidewalk near all the food places. hooray we were AX bums!!   °∀°after an hour or so we started searching for blake.. he was at the rave. for a whole hour we looked for it, around the outside of the convention center, since it was at a nearby hotel. we ran into a crazy drunk lady that yelled at us O___x;;  and people that gave us the worst directions ever!! >___<;; people even threw crap at us from their car! (´￢。￢｀；)   aaaaand that's why i hate long beach.  ⌒ω⌒♭

after everyone found each other, we drove back home, or to blake's house. x3 we all slept there for the night, all on the futon or floor.. hahahah!! we overslept a little, and didn't get to long beach that day until 6pm or so. but we had fun, we saw another live show, but ;__; we missed the oreskaband, the japanese ska!! x__o;; ohhhh wellllll. later that day, after walking around the convention center, we went back to our same spot, near the palm trees on the sidewalk, and sat and talked for like 2 hours! some weirdo named david asked us for directions, then stayed to talk. he look 25, or so. hahahaha he gave us candy, and we accepted it as a polite gesture.. hahahaaaa but yeaaaaa after he left we kinda tossed it. (~ -￢ω￢)~ those whole two days were really fun, i was handcuffed to yuki for them too, which was funny, because the yaoi fangirls saw us and freaked out!  next time, though, for october's con, i'm going to actually make my own costume. (with the help of my granma and yuki!)  ミ☆     (⌒▽⌒= )

Current Mood: happy

sooo~


today was full of warcraft, doodling, and reading manga, so at 7 something i decided to take a walk and grab the next volume of death note. i walked to new world comics, bought my manga, then walked to jack in the box--cause i didn't eat anything all day!

i ordered four tacos and an oreo shake!!! AND I ordered my stuff to go, but they put it on a tray..  (´￢。￢｀；)
so i thought, 

" hnnn well i guess i can eat here, it's only 8," 

the guy at the register was funny, he asked my name. i told him.
i went in the back corner and started to eat. 

soon a senior girl that worked there from boman, named Rachel, came out and started to talk to me. i swear she read me like a book!! XD she asked if i had a girlfriend, when i said no, she knew it was becasue i was too shy--and she had only talked to me for a few seconds!! 

(~￣_￣)~

when she left, a few minutes later her friend came out and tried to set me up on a date with her, can you believe it? 

ahaha.. of course i politely turned it down.. 


will i always be so.. socially disfuntional?   ＿｜￣｜O  


( = ＞ ω ＜ =)

Current Mood: ditzy

 you try. you fail. you pick yourself up and move on.. 

i'm going to bed

Current Mood: gloomy

soooo... today while i was cleaning my pool i just happened to look down, and i saw this humming bird on the ground. i went to get a closer look, to see if it was still alive or..

it looked like it was having a hard time breathing, and i don't think the rain was helping, XD so i picked it up and brought it in my house. i put it in a lil box in my room, and it's awake now, but i think it's right wing is really hurt. i dunno what to do with it i mean.. what the hell does it eat!


sugar water, i guess, but i don't know how i'm supposed to feed it. i guess i can try anyways. (~ -￢ω￢)~

Current Mood: determined

okay okay, so, yesterday, me and my grandma go out somewhere to eat lunch. and we decided on the claim jumper, cause, well... that was what we were near.

SO~ we walk in and are led to sit in a small table, then we begin to shuffle through the menus not knowing what the place has, because neither of us really knows what the place has. and our waitress comes up from behind me and asks,

"can i get you ladies anything to drink to start you off?"

 . . . TT^TT

YES, SHE ACTUALLY SAID THAT TO ME       (~ -  v -)~

i gave her a funny look (not a dirty look don't mistake the two!) and she felt so embarassed--it was funny.

yes... awkward moment   -_-

Current Mood: crushed

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